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yeah so this blog is to rant all the bad stuff in my life so my main blog aint affected.dun really wan ppl to worry bout me...
Anw currently i'm liking this girl in my class.n she's the 1st person to actually like me back.so yeah when i 1st confessed to her a few mths ago n then l8r she told me she likes me back,i was really happy and excited.i mean,wad r the odds?
but coz we're in express classes we focus more on our acad 1st.but we still sms each other alot.to date hav around 9762 msgs received frm her.n we hav so much in common...so i really tot we might last.but recently she said she didn't wan to hav a relationship.she still likes me but no touching n stuff.i think she's been wanting this all along but didn't dare to voice it out.then i'm guilty too,coz i held her hand n hugged her once.but she doesn't wan any contact,just talking n smsing.
Well i was sad at 1st...being deceived by her for so long.but then i forgave her.
However she oso said she liked me less...but still like me.i'm oso dismayed at that news.there was a period once where i didn't really like her too but recently the feeling's strong again.i really like her.she's a fine girl n a cute one too...but now we hav been reduced to friends liking each other.
I try to accept that but i cant.if i'm her friend i feel she doesnt like me anymore.so i've been acting cold towards her,hopefully she can dislike me for real.then i'll try to forget her too...